God has a plan...if you just look at your challenges the right way, you may learn something

Okay, I'm going to vent a little, but keep reading, there is a lesson, too. So, tomorrow marks my 3 month anniversary of being home. I'm more than just a little frustrated. Recently I've had several people comment on how I "sort of served a mission" or "kind of served a mission" or "served a mini-mission". Not only is this frustrating, it down right hurts...deep. Yes, I came home after a short 9 weeks, but I served FAITHFULLY in those 9 weeks and gave my all. I did NOT come home because I broke a rule or did something wrong. I didn't come home because of a wrong choice I made. Even if I did, no one on earth has the right to judge me and treat me the way some have. I was SENT home not by my choice, but because of an injury and because the MTC doctor wasn't satisfied with how I was healing (a whole other thing to vent about). Some think coming home early is the easy way out and to them I'd like to say they are ABSOLUTELY wrong. Coming home is one of the hardest things I've ever done. I've had days where I cry myself to sleep longing for that missionary experience that I'm "missing", trying to come up with why I came home, what I did wrong, wasn't I good enough to be a missionary? What lesson am I supposed to be learning? If so is there a way that I can learn it and finally move on? Then I learned...it's not that I wasn't good enough or did something wrong. There may not even be a particular lesson that I'm supposed to learn. Perhaps it's because God has a purpose for me in Kansas. Maybe there's someone here that needs me. I may not be wearing my name tag anymore, but I am still a missionary at heart. I study Preach My Gospel regularly, I'm still working on learning Spanish. I'm doing everything I can to stay worthy and prepared to return to the mission field once I'm healed...IF it be God's will. Even if it's not HOW DARE ANYONE judge me because I wasn't gone for 18 months. I am getting ready to have my 4th surgery since putting my papers in and 5th (if you include oral surgery) since I started my papers. I'm getting ready to meet with my FOURTH surgeon to try and find someone with the knowlege and skill to fix my shoulder. I've been through more while trying to serve a mission than most people go through in a lifetime, and I've learned a lot from it. I've grown to have an IMMENSE love for my Savior and what He's done for me. I KNOW that Christ not only suffered for sins, but so He can help us through ALL our challenges, no matter if it's a sickness, self-esteem issues, financial issues, or anything else that's ailing us. He KNOWS what we're going through and wants to help, but He is just waiting for us to ask. I challenge those that think coming home was the "easy" thing to reconsider that and think of what I'm going through. For those of you that have supported me through everything, I can't even express my gratitude. You're what's helped me pull through. You know who you are, and THANK YOU.