Sorry for the negativity

Okay, I am going to vent a little bit. Sorry for all the negativity, but I'm just frustrated. Since I started PT, I have been in more pain than I've experienced since right after the surgery. My orthopedic surgeon told me on my first visit with him to stop taking any of my prescription pain meds, and just take 2 Aleve twice a day to keep the inflammation down. Yesterday, though, I almost lost it. I was in PT and I had chatted with the therapist about how I've been having lots of spasms since starting PT. She replied with 'it shouldn't be doing that this long after surgery,' which was really comforting. Then we proceeded with the rest of the PT session. She decided she wanted to see if I had any more motion then when she saw me when I first started PT. I explained to her the pain that I get once my arm gets to a certain point. Well, she just kept pulling/twisting/whatever other form of torture she was doing at the time. I would tell her, "that hurts, it feels like something is going to snap" and I showed her where. I have one spot that is the biggest trouble maker. Well, she would dig her finger into that spot, which would shoot pain from my shoulder down to my elbow, and keep moving my arm. Now you have to understand, I very rarely cry when I'm in physical pain. Yesterday, she had me to the point of tears several times. I actually cried in PT because it hurt so bad. I know there is a certain amount of pain associated with PT, but when the patient is crying, you would think that's a good point to stop and rest for a second. I kept telling her, all I needed was maybe a 30 second break where the muscles could rest. I mean my arm was shaking it was so fatigued. You know that running after you've ran to long where your legs are like jello and you feel like they are going to give at any moment? At the end of the session (which was supposed to be 1.5-2 hours and ended up being a little over 3!) she had the nerve to say "well your shoulder moved a little farther than it did the last time I saw you." I wanted to yell "well yeah it did, last time you stopped before the tears came."I'm very frustrated because I can't get a straight answer from anyone. I just want to start seeing progress. I've been in PT for over 2 weeks now and I can't notice any difference, unless you count the fact that the muscles from my elbow to my neck are completely knotted, I have muscle spasms at random times during every day, whether I've had PT or not, and I'm in a lot more pain than I have been since surgery-and getting less sleep because it keeps waking me up. Well, with her seeing and documenting "a little progress" in my movement, I'm afraid that the orthopedic surgeon will want me to just continue PT. Despite what the last year of my life looks like, I really don't LIKE or SEEK OUT reasons to have surgery. But now, I am really leaning towards them knocking me out and just ripping all the scar tissue loose that way. Is that irrational of me? Right now, PT is like when you taking a bandaid off one hair at a time. Surgery would be like just ripping the bandaid off-it'll hurt more initially, but everything will be loose and I can finally start progressing. I'm just scared now that the surgeon will see "progress" on the physical therapist's notes and want to stick with PT longer, but that report will probably not mention the fact that it was the therapist just deciding to just torture me instead of stopping when I told her it hurt like she did when she measured the first time. That's what PT is like right now...sheer torture. How do I explain this to the doctor without sounding like a wuss that's too lazy/doesn't want PT and is just looking for a shortcut. I would love to be able to get this fixed without surgery, but I just don't see any significant progress happening anytime in the near future with the rate we're going in PT. Any suggestions?