Monday, April 13, 2015

Four in one day...what?!?!?!?! Trust me, I'm almost done with the story

Going out with the missionaries was great and blessed me, but I still struggled a little (or a lot at times).  I still thought that I needed to get ready for medical school.  I was still kind of miserable in school (second straight semester of Organic Chemistry), preparing for the MCAT (THAT was fun), getting applications ready for medical school.  My life was coming together again.  I took the MCAT, then shortly after I went to Haiti. It was JUST what the doctor ordered!!! I treated patients, I sweat, I worked hard, and it felt GREAT.  Treating patients was what I wanted to do!!! I came back from Haiti recharged and ready to go.  I continued my applications for Medical School, got back my MCAT score...not too shabby (especially for not taking any prep course and doing very little prep work (not that I didn't want to, I just couldn't find the time). I was a week away from submitting my application to several medical schools...all of a sudden, something didn't feel right.  I've become VERY familiar with that feeling over the last few years. It took a lot to figure out what that was, but at the time I KNEW now was not the time to apply to medical school...I just didn't know why.  I still felt like that was where I would end up, but not at this time in my life.  GREAT!!! Now what was I supposed to do.  I really wish I could get a blue print from God sometimes.  This is the time of your life you will be a paramedic, THIS is when you will get married, THIS is what career you will be in, etc.  It would make things SOOOOO much easier!!! I really felt uneasy about medical school, I prayed and prayed for answers, then thought back to what made me happiest.  Maybe that would be a clue to where I needed to start. I loved serving in Haiti.  I treated patients, I was able to teach and testify of Christ. I needed to go back on a mission...WAIT...WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! EXACTLY what I was thinking.  I enjoyed my time in Haiti and I came home not knowing that my mission trip there was missing one "little" thing that would have made it perfect.  It took a lot of pondering and to We were able to share a little bit about Christ, but something was still missing.  I couldn't share the FULL knowledge I had of Christ (it was through a non-denominational Christian organization). I wanted to share the fullness of the Gospel that I had learned to love and rely on through the tough times.  I wanted to go on a full-time mission again. Holy Moly... I was going on a mission again...but how? when? I'm still in school?!?!?!?!?!?! I was a little very confused about how this was going to work.

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